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Allen Mark Apalit Canares

24 September 2011
On this day, I felt so selfish. I kept Allen (the so smiling face on the photo above)  waiting for me until 12 in the afternoon even if he didn`t have (even a bit of) sleep yet at that time because he came from a night shift a work. Just went home to take a bath and rest very little. I always kept him waiting and I`m so guilty with that. Although, it`s really not my intention to be always late, sometimes it really just happens due to some reasons which I think are valid naman (for me, hehehe). Like the last time I left home at around 930 am because our scheduled meeting is at 11am. But, due to traffic, the never ending traffic, it made me late for an hour. Imagine that. I felt really selfish because I made him feel so tired because we had to go back at ATC pa just to buy the cellphone that I had supposedly bought earlier where we went earlier. So from Festival again, after a lot of walks and thought of regrets, I forced him to go back to the store at  ATC where we saw the phone that I really wanted. I even joked him that he should convinced me more on buying it earlier. But of course, I am always the pasaway and matigas ang ulo at hindi nakikinig. After that, he asked me if I want to eat daw, that was already 6pm, and I could see the tiredness in him. He`so sleepy. Nainis ako sa sarili ko.

Seeing him like that made me realize one thing. `If you think you`ve found something that you like, even if it`s not the exact one that you`d been dying to have, grab it! `

Nothing is more regretful  in a situation na nahawakan mo na, binibigay na sa`yo, pero dahil doubtful ka pa din kasi ineexpect mo na may makikita ka pa na mas maganda at mas ok, hindi mo tinanggap `yung offer. So, you looked for another one, kahit na pagod na pagod ka na sa kakahanap, wala ka pa din makita. Tapos, pagbalik mo dun sa nag-offer sa`yo, wala na. Nakuha na ng iba. Ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Actually madaming beses ng ngyari saken `tong sitwasyon na `to. Pero kahit ilang beses na sya nangyari, hindi pa rin ako matuto-tuto. May mga nadadamay pa tuloy na hindi naman dapat. Madami pa tuloy naaapektuhan.

By the way, at the end of the story, Allen had no choice but to go with me. We went back to ATC. Fortunately, all the regrets, tiring walk (even I was very tired at that time) really paid off well. The phone which was already their last stock was still there. After that, Allen, the super nice guy, even asked me if I am still hungry and want to eat. Well, I don`t wanna lie, so I was really hungry and just said `Sige, kain muna tayo. Para makakain ka din kasi for sure, pagdating mo sa bahay, pagod na pagod ka na at diretso ka na matulog nyan.` Of course, I am always concerned with my very close friend that`s why I told him that. He even paid for our bill. Hehe, gosh, my face is not so thick `no.

So there, `Festi is still the place to be` -(I remember telling him this phrase when we went to Makati after we went to kgb MKCC for the processing of his final pay.) That`s the terminal of our rides going back home. It was already 7pm when we separate each other ways. While saying our goodbyes nga pala, medyo na-confused lang ako. What would I do, shall I `beso` him in the cheek for the kindness and patience that he showed me that day. I wanted to do so, but inabot na ko ng hiya e, believe it or not, hiyang-hiya ako sa kanya no. He didn`t deserve that treatment I gave him　ｔｈａｔ　ｄａｙ．. So I just ended up　ｔｅｌｌｉｎｇ　ｈｉｍ Ｉｎｇａｔ　ｋａ!　Ｔｅｘｔ　ｍｏ　ｋｏ　ｐａｇ　ｎａｓａ　ｂａｈａｙ　ｋａ　ｎａ　ｈａ．　Ａｌｔｈｏｕｇｈ　Ｉ　ｋｎｅｗ　ｔｈａｔ　ｈｅ　ｄｉｄｎ‘ｔ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｅｎｅｒｇｙ　ｔｏ　ｒｅｐｌｙ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｍｅｓｓａｇｅ．　Ｉｔ‘ｓ　ｏｋ．　Ｉ　ｕｎｄｅｒｓｔａｎｄ．

Ｔｈｅ　ｐｉｃｔｕｒｅ　ｗａｓ　ｔａｋｅｎ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｗｅ　ｗｅｒｅ　ｉｎ　Ｓｈａｋｅｙ‘ｓ．　Ｓｅｅ，　ｈｅ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｓｍｉｌｅｄ．　Ｔｈａｎｋ　ｙｏｕ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈａｔ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｌｏｖｅｌｙ　ｓｍｉｌｅ　ｍｙ　ｆｒｉｅｎｄ．　Ｉｔ　ｍａｄｅ　ｍｅ　ｌｅｓｓｅｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｕｉｌｔ　Ｉ　ａｍ　ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇ．　Ｈａｎｇｇａｎｇ　ｓａ　ｓｕｓｕｎｏｄ　ｎａ　ｐａｎｇｕｎｇｕｌｉｔ，　ａｔ　ｐａｇｐａｐａｇｏｄ。　Ｄｏｎ‘ｔ　ｗｏｒｒｙ　Ｉ　ｌｅａｒｎｅｄ　ｍｙ　ｌｅｓｓｏｎ　ａｌｒｅａｄｙ．　Ｉ　ｈｏｐｅ　Ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｄｉｄ．　

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