Friday, January 21, 2011

Ikaw...

Napakasarap na marinig mula sa isang taong ikaw ang problema nya. Para sa'kin 'yun a. Nakakatuwa, surprising, at the same time confused at worried ako para sa taong 'yon. Sa dinami-dami ba naman ng mga babae sa mundo na kilala nya, kaibigan, o katrabaho, matanong ko lang, "BAKIT AKO?!"

Thankful naman din ako sa nalaman ko. Hanggang ngayon pala e, ganon pa rin ang nararamdaman nya para sa'kin.

"Wow!", yun lang ang naging reaksyon ko at ang pinakaunang salitang nabitiwan ko nang maintindihan ko ang sagot mo sa paulit-ulit na tanong ko sa'yo kung ano nga ba talaga ang problema mo? At paulit-ulit mo rin na sinasabi na "ikaw". (Siguro mga more or less ten times din tayong nagpaulit-ulit) 'Yun pala yun. Bopols ko talaga. Two weeks na ang nakaraan simula ng tumawag ka at hanggang ngayon tumatawag ka pa rin. Sabi nga, nakainom ka pa no'n at according to you, mag-isa ka lang sa rooftop ng bahay ng tita mo. Kailangan ba talaga uminom muna bago tayo mag-usap? Pero, nice a! Sana makatambay din kita d'yan one time. Minsan invite mo din ako.

Bakit mo kaya ako naisipang tawagan nun? Sabado, January 7, 2011. Around 12 am na at siguro mga isang oras din tayong nag-usap. Unlimited call ka so every five minutes e napuputol ang tawag mo. Kaka-off ko pa lang ng computer for 30 minutes at medyo mababaw na ang tulog ko nang marinig ko na mag-ring ang telepono ko. Nagulat ako. Akala ko pa nga e 'yung isang taong kapangalan mo na kakilala ko ang tumatawag sa akin dahil iba ang number na ginamit mo. Buti na lang hindi ako nagkamali ng sagot. Ikaw nga.

Pero siguro mas masarap ang pakiramdam kung may ginagawa tayong paraan at pinapatunayan mo sa akin na ako nga talaga ang problema mo. Hehehe... It may sound old and cliche, pero, gusto kong sabihin sa'yo ng diretso na gusto ko na ligawan mo ako. Sana hindi lang sa telepono tayo nag-uusap. Sana magkakilala pa tayo ng mas mabuti. Sana totoo ang lahat ng mga naririnig ko sa'yo. Kasi kahit sa telepono lang tayo magkausap, naniniwala ako sa mga sinasabi mo at umaasa ako. Salamat at nandyan ka pa din kahit na medyo hindi maganda ang mga nangyari sa atin dati. Sana hindi ka katulad ng mga naunang lalaki na lumapit at nagsadya sa akin. Sana maglevel up naman tayo!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

My 2010 ^^

If someone would ask me to describe my life in 2010, I would be honest to say that it wasn't good enough for me. While most people would be telling that they had bloom in 2010 or that year was their luckiest year ever, I'd like to be brave to tell you all that mine wasn't. I do remember last year when my friend, Wowa Tet, asked me for my Chinese Zodiac. So, I said I was born under the Year of the Tiger. Then she said that she overheard from an astrologer on TV that the year 2010 would not be good enough for those people who were born under the Tiger's year. I agreed with her and said that I also heard about it. We just wished each other GOOD LUCK because both of us were born under that year. Well, it seemed that what my friend told me was true. I actually started my 2010 with foolishness so I ended up being a fool. My bad. Apologies but I do self-pity sometimes, most especially last year, a lot of not so good things happened. But of course, there are also good things that came on my way. Still, I thank God for all of these.

To tell you how my 2010 was, I'd like to share it with you. I know that this is a little late. Pero pwede pa naman siguro humabol. Here it goes...

JANUARY: Nagkabalikan kami ng ex-boyfriend kong si lolo. Ako 'yung gumawa ng move. Ang nasa isip ko kasi nun, New Year na, 2010 na. I'm not getting any younger. Ayun, sa kasamaang palad, pumayag sya na maging kami ulit. Pero may mga sinabi syang kondisyon. At sa kasamaang palad pumayag ako kahit na sobrang komplikado ang sitwasyon namin.

FEBRUARY: Nothing much. February. Love month. Valentine's Day. Date dito, date dyan. Ok naman kami. We celebrated out first month again. Ok lang.

MARCH: Another foolishness. 'Yung nanliligaw saken dati, binasted ko kasi nagiguilty ako sa kanya dahil meron na kong iba. A script from my diary says: "Tonight, I broke someone else's heart, while someone else is also breaking mine".

APRIL: I got laid off from the company where I worked for almost 2 years (1yr & 8 mos). Isang napakalaking katangahan ang ginawa ko. Pahinga lang muna sa bahay.

MAY: After the lay off, I got my backpay, not bad. It was my ex's birthday on the 14th pero parang hindi nya naapreciate 'yung mga ginagawa ko sa kanya. Nag-away pa nga kami nung araw na yun. I applied in Teletech but I failed the role-playing. That was my very first mock call.

JUNE: Ate flew to Japan. My mother got sick after few days. We thought that her life would be ended. Kasi sobrang hirap talaga ng dinanas nya. Her sickness was very rare according to the doctors. So we needed a lot of money for her medications. Good thing, the whole family, from my lola to our distant relatives and friends never failed to support us emotionally and financially. 

JULY: The month I was born. Just stayed at home to take care of nanay. Dito na kami nagsimulang magkaroon ng distansya ng ex ko. He rarely texts me. I wasn't texting him too that much. I wasn't able to go out of the house often. Binati naman nya ko nung birthday ko. 'Yun lang. Kinabukasan, wala na ulit.

AUGUST: I found an opportunity in Convergys - Alabang. I had a training for 5 days in Makati (Insular Life Bldg.). Unfortunately, I failed the mock call again. Dissapointed. Yes. I went to Comelec to register in the coming election day. But the office was very much crowded and really messy so I wasn't able to finish the registration. I also applied in FADV but I missed their call because I really couldn't answer it at that time they were calling.

SEPTEMBER: I began to realize that I have always made the wrong decision. And I began to miss him. The guy who courted me and the one whom I busted out through text.

OCTOBER: My niece and I had a month-long vacation in Balaoan, La Union. Over-all, we had fun. New environment, new experiences, new people. 

NOVEMBER: It's nanay's 51st birthday. However, she got hospitalized again for 2 days because she wasn't able to walk due to low potassium. Another job opportunity came to me through a friend's text message. So, I applied. It's an ESL job. Again, I failed. It was the teaching demo this time around.

DECEMBER: Before Christmas, this ESL job called me again and said that I was chosen as one of the teachers for the 2nd batch. That I would be starting on 27 December. So, I went there. But because I was late, I wasn't interviewed. They asked me to come back the next day for the orientation (I think they were rushing at that time). So, I did. I was interviewed by Mr. Lee and the other interviewer (also a Korean). Unfortunately, I failed the teaching demo again, for the second time around.

For the whole 2010 last year, I loved, hated, failed, regret, got jealous, tried, forgave, forgot, received, prayed, cried, lose, gained, fooled, gave, stayed, cooked, learned, got depressed, realized, got mad, surprised, lied, believed, pretended, hoped, enjoyed, fought, and a lot more. I can't express them all. 

So there. I hope that you enjoy reading the summary of my year in 2010. It's been over a year now since I start writing on this blog. I am looking forward to have more years to write and share my stories with you. Hope that you read and appreciate my writings. Thank you for taking your precious time reading. I really appreciate it. Happy new year! ^_^ May God bless us with his grace this year and the coming years.